When I found out I was pregnant...

Since this blog is focusing on my life - right now the BIGGEST thing in my life is my pregnancy and I really do hope to include pregnancy related type posts to document my journey, I thought this would be a fun way to get the ball rolling :)

When I found out I was pregnant....

It was 2am in the morning. I finally gained the courage to just take that pregnancy test. Why was I so afraid to take the test? There are missing pieces (obviously. These are from way way before but it's too long winded to get every detail). I was afraid to take the test because we had been trying to conceive  - I was just afraid to be disappointed.

Anyways, at 2am I finally gained the courage to take the test. Vince was asleep right beside me and for some reason I just decided I HAD TO take the test. I was late and I just had a feeling that it could be. I figured that I'd just do it and if it's a negative, I would just wait till morning to tell him about it. I waited and those two lines popped up - "I AM PREGNANT!" I cried in the bathroom, I thanked God, I was just so overjoyed. I went back to the bedroom and woke Vince up. I felt bad for waking him but I just couldn't contain myself. He was happy and we celebrated the moment & he went back to sleep. I didn't sleep that night, I was just so happy and excited. I couldn't believe it. We broke the news to family right away but decided to keep it off social media until we hit the 2nd trimester.

I had my first doctors appointment within the first couple weeks of getting the positive, and we found out that I was 10 weeks pregnant. I'm a planner and Vince and I had so much planned already but it was exciting to know that it was all really happening. We knew what we wanted to do, we knew we wanted to find out the sex. I'm just not that big on gender neutral colors so I figured I would want to know so I could plan accordingly. We had a list of names way before we got pregnant - it was more of deciding on a name that would just fit and one that we both liked. We knew the boy name from the start (perhaps that was a sign) but were somewhat undecided on the girl name. Vince wanted his baby boy first and he did get what he wanted :) we both couldn't be happier.

The start of my pregnancy was pretty rough. I was sick all day, everyday for about 17 weeks. It was painful but I reminded myself that I should cherish all these moments because I will look back on them. Vince was the sweetest and he dealt with my many cravings and insane mood swings (and I REALLY appreciate it). At week 18 we found out we are having a boy :) . I've really just been savoring the whole pregnancy. The feeling is amazing and knowing that I am part of God's miracle is such an amazing feeling.

I finally have more energy and haven't had morning sickness for awhile now. At this point, we've both been able to feel his kicks from the outside. I've been able to see his movements (trying to record it but for some reason he just knows when I'm trying to record it lol). It's so amazing and I'm enjoying it every step of the way and I really couldn't be happier or more blessed. I love our little family & the amazing journey that is ahead.

Here's a saying that I really like :)

LIFE is so wonderful. Words of wisdom for the day "Go out and smell the flowers, breathe in the clean fresh air, and most importantly - count your blessings."

xoxo

Updatesssss

Good Evening Readers:

Sorry for being MIA for awhile. It has been absolutely insane. I will try to sum it up quickly so I can go to the main purpose at hand here --- THIS POST ;).

Vince has been in Minneapolis for work training. He started early April and he will be done mid May. Time is really flying by and I couldn't be happier. That means that my pregnancy is flying by & HE WILL BE HOME SOOOOONNNNN :D. Having him away for an extended period of time hasn't been as hard as I thought it would. I've found strength in meditating, praying, keeping myself occupied, and keeping me & my little man happy.

I ended up spending the past month at Vince's parents' house because I thought it would be safer since I wasn't completely alone. Just moved back to our cozy apartment this past weekend (figured I might as well get readjusted, clean, and organize before my man gets home). In the past month, we've found out that we are indeed having a BOY :), we went to our college Viennese Ball, spent Easter together, I spent a lot of time with my in laws and the puppies, crashed my car (long story as to what happened but I got a ticket for it - which I am def not happy about...), moved back to the apartment.... & this weekend spending time with my man, MIL, and in laws for Mother's Day.

Things that I've been pondering on:

• What I wanna do after baby boy is born?
• School options and if I still really wanna go to graduate school (what field, when, etc)
• Ideas for a book? Possibly....
• and this is just cause of Mother's Day - When is one considered a mother? While she's carrying her unborn child or only after giving birth to said child?

I was just wondering about that last one just cause I've been hearing varying viewpoints on it. I guess I feel that it should be fair that whenever someone considers herself a mom, that's when it should go into effect, but that's just my 2 cents. I say that because as soon as I found out I was pregnant, I had a bond with my baby & from then on I considered myself a mom (disregarding the fact of whether or not I would carry full term).

Other exciting thing coming soon - The baby shower &&&&& OUR WEDDING! 6.21.14 is gonna be a special day indeed (one LONG, BUSY, BUT SPECIAL DAY <3)

I honestly just can't wait to say "I do" to the man of my dreams :) I used to feel the need to have an extravagant affair but I've come to realize that all I need is him & close family and friends and it will all be special and perfect. Nonetheless, SO MUCH EXCITEMENTTTTTTTT.

Now onto the pregnancy part of things... (Sorry this is all jumbled up and not just focused on one subject. This post is particularly hard just cause I wanted to focus on one topic but at the same time I've been away for awhile so I feel the need to fill in all the little gaps and spaces. I promise to TRY to stay more on point & to come on more often so this doesn't repeat itself lol)

In 2 days I'll be at the 22 week mark. This pregnancy has been such an amazing journey. It's really weird how everything happens. I say this because now more than ever have I come to realize that NOTHING is in my control. People will come in and out of your life as they please. Opportunities come and go. Life flashes before your eyes and you realize just how valuable every waking moment is. 

LIFE is so amazing and nothing is in my control, I've come to accept that fact more than ever. If it's meant to be, it'll happen. 

K I'm gonna cut this post off right here just cause otherwise it's gonna be a novella. Onto my next post.......